What if the belief you were given about suicide was wrong?
Brenda was raised with a certainty she never questioned: suicide meant eternal separation from God.
It was never presented as a possibility. It was presented as truth.
Then her brother, Timmy, died by suicide.
In that moment, everything she believed collided with the reality she was living. The answers she had been given no longer held. Grief did not arrive with clarity-only questions that refused to go away.
What followed was not a single season of loss, but years of wrestling with faith, doctrine, memory, and the nature of God's mercy.
God Still Loves Timmy is the story of that reckoning.
This is a memoir of loss and belief-and what happens when inherited certainty is tested by real life.
Over time, the story moves through grief, moments of meaning, and the difficult process of reexamining what was once assumed-returning again and again to Scripture, experience, and the question of whether what we are taught truly holds.
Inside this book:
- The lived reality of losing someone to suicide
- The tension between what is taught and what is experienced
- What Scripture does-and does not-clearly say about suicide
- How long-held beliefs are tested under the weight of personal loss
- Where meaning and hope can still be found
Written for those navigating grief, those questioning long-held beliefs, and those seeking a faith that remains steady under pressure.
Because even in silence, one truth remains:
God still loves Timmy.
